Friday, February 17, 2006

Free For all Friday

So I am going to incorporate “Free For All Friday”. Basically, I get a lot of email and comments that ask for my advice or opinions. I get hate mail and I get mail that feeds my ego. Every Friday I am going to pick one as a topic for discussion. Today I am going to post one from a guy who is seriously hurting. This brought tears to my eyes, really. He commented on a post I made a while back “Broken Heart” and as I read his comment I felt for him. I have many suggestions for this guy, but what do I know. I think it would be better if he heard it from you. I have not altered his comment at all. This is how it was posted. Please reach out to him as we have all been there once in our life.

Broken Heart:

im a 26 year old asian male, who started a performing arts course at college last sept. There she was, a being of total perfection. so young,funny beautful, talented. wanting to be around her all the time, i havea weeks holiday, and i just cant stand the thought of not seeing herover this period.
i fell in love with her. her flirty manner towards me just captured myheart. i dont stop thinking about her. the thought of me not spendingmy life with her, makes me feel so overwhelmingly sick. seeing her, nobeing able to touch her, hold her kiss her. knowing that one day sheshall be in the armsof another, and all i can do is be happy for her. icry everyday, i have this emptyness inside me all the time. its taken me26 years to find someone who i want to be with, in the whole world,only to fin out that she sees me as a friend. Why the hell couldnt i havelearned the lesson of love at an earlier age? its such a struggle to doanything, knowing that i woul never be that special person in her lifejust makes me want to die. Every touch, smile, look, is so electrical,an dlike a rose, its just slowly withering away.i know that im in lovewith this girl, shes in my thoughs in every minute of every day. iguess some could say that its obsessive, but fuck it. im not ashamed ofadmitting i feel this way about another person. i do wish however, that iwas the one lydia looked at in that way. im doubting myself, my looks,personality. how could one who is just the sweetest, perfect girls inthe world hurt me so much. im in the dark stage of my life, i pray iheal, but then i pray that i could be her one love. any advice anyone? ifeel like im dying. i cant imagine my life without her, nor do i want to. my god im so sad, im cryin and typing! i feel so pathetic, becauseive never been like this or felt like this about anyone ever. any wordsof wisdom would be appreciated.
regards, and good luck in love people,
take care
adam khan